No
matter who I try to be, it's never the same as the person other's see. I
try and show my best qualities, there's always someone who I can't seem
to please. Sometimes the only way I feel I'm able to shine, is when I
know other's are thinking that I am fine. I just want to be known for
honesty and compassion, though I fear I'm more remembered when they
notice an imperfection. Why can't I just like me without the approval of
others, first impression I let go the wish for another. But I can't take
back things once they are done, and someone has already formed there
opinion. No matter how hard I strive to be special in someone's eyes,
for some reason they believe I hide behind little lies. There's times
when I feel like I'm great, when my head is actually thinking straight.
Unfortunately it doesn't take much for me to down, I then use a smile to
hide my frown. If I spoke my feelings to a friend, could it help these
ugly thoughts end? Or maybe I should explain myself to a stranger, that
seems to be a slight danger. I guess before anyone can see who I wish
them to see, I need to find out who I am and who do I want to be. I
guess I just need to look inside for all that is true, oh I'm not sure
what I'm going to do. Before I can get love from anyone else, I have to
find love for myself.
 So
You Want to Know About Me
Here
you'll find facts about me and who I am. The stories behind the poetry
and the things that inspired me to have a web site.
And also basic questions and answers people ask. And whatever else I
want because it's my site. (j/k)
First little fact my
name is Susanne and I am from the beautiful colorful Colorado. I am 23
years old I'm an Aries. I enjoy learning about the subject of suicide, strange I know. For
reasons that I will explain in other parts of my web site. My favorite
color is yellow, my favorite thing to do is write, and I also like being
with my family.
As I mentioned I enjoy
writing and do it more than anything else. When I was 14-16 I made
myself write a poem every day, probably because I had nothing better to
do and because I had no one to talk to, so I just wrote any and every
little thought that came to mind. But when I wrote poetry, I didn't
always write from my own thoughts, I put myself in someone else's shoes
I have a daughter with the love of my life and
we named her Tamara after her late aunt/Eric's sister. She is my whole
world and I am just so happy that I did have her. Although I never ever
thought I would have a kid and really didn't want one but she makes us a
family.
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Here for Past Stories that have more thought to them than just memories...
For me anyways
Click
here for stories about my life
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