Same Mistake Again

I made a mistake three years ago; it was the hardest thing I caused myself to go through.

It’s not always easy to know, who can and who can’t hurt you.

You may think that you are in control, only to find out you never were.

Then making you feel un-whole, the worst emotions then occur.

I told myself I would not go through that again, mistakes should be learned from.

I have been stronger since then, feeling like a stupid bum.

I see myself taking a risk I said I wouldn’t take, not a second time around.

If this becomes another mistake, my heart may no longer pound.

I can’t help the way I feel, it’s just the way it goes.

I hope this is all real, and I hope it continues to grow.

It just seems to me there is unfinished matter here, and it has nothing to do with me.

It’s creating a bigger fear, I need reassurance I am the one to be.

I feel like trouble is coming and I wont be able to change it, change the direction its heading.

My mind is going to loose it, the moment it happens I am dreading.

What’s a girl to do when she’s chasing after one, who doesn’t want to be chased?

I can only hope my time with him isn’t done, I hope my feelings aren’t misplaced.

By: Susanne M. Martinez