I looked inside of what I thought I understood

Only to find so many things have changed

Making me a person I never wanted to be

Been through more than anyone should

Especially a teen who thinks she’s strange

I’ve kept a strong mind luckily

Now that I’ve seen inside myself it’s clear

I have nothing going on in my life

My plan for my future is now a blank page

There’s so much I have come to fear

My heart has a few knifes

Permantly there and my emotions are in a cage

But now that I can see what’s wrong

I can fix the problems that are there

To be someone who is above

Before my problem was I wasn’t strong

Death seemed to be more fare

I really found no reason in me to love

There was a time once

When I only loved me

I was the best just because

Then I became a dunce

And Now I can see

I don’t have to be who I was

Susanne M Martinez