How does one feel as though there’s nothing they can do?

Why can one feel so much like they don’t matter?

It’s not easy for me to feel when everything seems so untrue,

I don’t know why I just get sadder and sadder.

It’s not for any reason other than my own,

So there’s no one who I can blame.

But why do I always feel so alone?

Life is just not the same.

It really makes me sad when I try to make someone else see,

How much I really care.

I just want someone to feel the same for me,

Yet I feel like no one is there.

I know the only way to be happy is for me to get over the small things,

It’s really hard though when you feel like you have no control.

Inside I know there are more than a few things changing,

Mostly it’s something that’s making me feel unwhole.

Won’t somebody help me with the thoughts that are on my mind?

I wonder why I cry and no one will ask me anything.

Even when they do the words I never seem to find,

So I respond with only nothing.

Isn’t there someone out there who wants me the way I need one to?

If I had one wish to spend I’d wish,

For somebody to love me the way I do,

And always want to kiss.

Susanne Martinez