Eric

I want to be someone, but I can't tell who I am.

I want everyone to know where I'm from, the same planet as them.

I need to find myself happy, because I've solved my problems inside me.

Right now life isn't so crappy, but I can't figure who I want to be.

I found friends and a guy who says love but that's a weakness,

The only time I'm happy is when I'm not alone.

I sometimes feel like a freak, this feeling seems to have grown.

And yet I still feel like I'm waiting, for it all to go away,

Everyday debating, wondering, will today be the day?

Do you want me or do you not?

My heart has begun to slowly rot.

Inside I have never felt this way before,

And I’m starting to think I won’t find happiness with you anymore.

Please forgive me if I make no sense, remember I'm still just a teen,

I'm still climbing life's fence, because no one tries to explain what things mean.

I feel really foolish when I think of stupid things, especially of you and no other.

But the memories from my past brings, a pain that's different from another.

If there is a problem you have with something I've done, please tell me.

Because you don't always seem open, but I'll be okay if you'll speak honestly.

I don't want to get in the way, especially of the things you already have.

We are friends always, don't loose any feelings you may or may not have.

Susanne Martinez